Where to start?
I spent YEARS feeling uncomfortable in my body. Since my early school days I was insecure and felt ‘too fat’ and therefore unworthy. I felt like I didn’t fit in with the cool kids and thought that when I lost weight things would be different. So, I went on numerous diets, I lost lots of weight and afterwards I put all the weight back on again plus more!
I have a photo of me in my school uniform when I was thin, and I remember thinking that despite being thinner, all my problems were still there. I also remember fainting in the toilets because I wasn’t eating enough.
I pursued thin-ness for many years, tried various diets, fads and slimming clubs to ‘get fixed’. For years, I was ashamed at my inability to control my eating because once I had stopped yo-yo dieting I just ate. I ate whatever I wanted, as much as I wanted but couldn’t understand why I could only stop eating when the packet was empty. How come my husband could have ‘just a taste’ and I needed the whole packet?!
Then there was the example I was setting for my children….